in season one ben couldn’t work up the courage to ask his own parents not to go away for his birthday, and in season four he flew across the country to confess his love for a girl he wasn’t sure loved him back
once again crying screaming throwing up over the fact that ben gross, who has always carried the weight of the world on his shoulders, who has always lashed out to avoid being vulnerable, who has been raised in a household where he has been neglected and abandoned over and over again, who has been rejected more times than he can count, worked up the courage to fly across the country to tell a girl he loves her—not knowing what she would say, not knowing if she would reject him—just because he wanted her to know. just because it was true.
ben: i’m going to miss having a nemesis (i’m going to miss you so much)
devi: you’ll probably meet someone you hate in college and forget all about me (im scared you’re going to fall in love with someone in college and never talk to me again)
ben: i don’t think that’s possible (i literally cannot love someone more than i love you)
